Writing has been hard for me as of late. I'm known to write my best when I am raw but let's just say I've been just a little too raw this past year. My writing has suffered on account of it as has my photography.
But one thing that hasn't changed or more that has been magnified during this past year is what I accept and don't from others.
I've walked away from a couple of decades old friendships on this words. To this day it baffles me how one can respond with this weak ass response, especially from a so called 'good friend'. I mean is that ALL you got?? Gimme a break.
I have never ever responded in this manner when a friend comes to me with problems or heartache. I give 110% to close friends. Pardon me if I expect the same back.
It is simply a weak ass cop out of a response and I am not here for it. I just laid my heart out (it takes me a LOT to even do on any given day) I'm looking for support, for friendship and I get a 'Don't worry it will get better'?? It insults me to no end and it well states my position on the ladder of our so called 'friendship'. So yeah, I'm stepping off those rungs.. I foolishly thought it was a stronger ladder.
Being 'ghosted'
Another decades long friendship I walked away from and I knew it was time. I was ghosted for the third time via text and yup, 3rd time's the charm for me. I mean, you didn't have enough of the first two times, Jamie?? This one's a my bad on my part.
Yes, there are times I've taken a bit too long to respond but I do answer back after profusely apologizing. Either I read it and was distracted or I am famous for forgetting to take my cell off silent.
I was ghosted by someone who matters the world to me so it goes without saying I won't accept it by anyone else.
Ain't no one got time for that. . especially me. I deserve more, I deserve better.